Day 5 - Thoughts regarding inner turmoil about your sexuality; Did you have any? Did it escalate to self-injury or suicidal thoughts?
Well, for a while I wasn’t really sure whether I wanted to be a male or a female and I still have some doubts. People actually always used to say I looked like a guy and that I was an ugly girl, so I thought if I cut my hair and dressed like a guy no one would say that anymore. But over time I actually wanted what guys had. I wanted to look how they looked. I wanted to have their voice so I could be in a boy band and have tons of people (mostly girls) love me. May sound conceited but I dunno it’s the way I feel.
I never cut myself or wanted to kill myself over being gay or anything, I was depressed for other reasons.